Monthly Archives: November 2011

I need a sign

Why do perfect strangers think it’s o.k. to ask questions about my pregnancy? When are you due? Is this your first?  I think I’ll pull my hair out if one more person asks me if this is my first pregnancy.   I’m thinking of getting a t-shirt made with ‘No, this isn’t my first pregnancy.  My first child is named Alexander and he died in December 2008. Now, back off and stop asking me questions.’  The sign may seem a little harsh but I’m so tired of strangers asking questions.  Why can’t they  just leave me alone and let me enjoy my pregnancy.

Since losing Alexander, I have definitely become more sensitive.  Questions I thought were innocent before can now cause a deep wound.  It has also made me realize that you just never know what a person’s situation is or what they’re going through at any given time.  So, it might be better to wait and let them take the lead in what they want to share.

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Name confusion

Drawing of Alexander done by a friend

As I continue my preparations for the arrival of Baby Dodson2, I find myself missing Alexander even more.

At times, when I’m talking to the baby, I call him Alexander instead of the name we’ve chosen for him.  I’m looking forward to his arrival and I know he isn’t Alexander, but I can’t help the name slip ups.  I really wish they could be growing up together.