Monthly Archives: December 2011

3rd Anniversary – December 20, 2011

I’d forgotten how exhausting a newborn could be.  Alexander’s younger brother, Daniel was born November 17 and has been keeping me very busy.  I barely have time to sleep much less do things like update my blog.

I’ve been so tired, I don’t think I’ve really had a chance to process my feelings about Alexander’s anniversary.  It’s hard to believe Alexander has been gone 3 years.  On his anniversary date, we spent a quiet day at home and went to cemetery in the afternoon.

Recently, a friend asked me if it gets any easier.  I told her I don’t think it gets easier.  Alexander’s loss has become part of me and is something I must deal with on a daily basis.  Some days are better than others. Now that Daniel has arrived, I’m trying to find a balance between being happy for the child that I have here with me and being sad and missing the child that is gone.

I talk to Daniel about Alexander and we look at pictures of him. I think Alexander and Daniel would have been great friends and I wish my boys could have grown up together.

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